I was in the midst of a kinda prophetic dream of sorts this morning before the alarm went off. The dream: I'm on a bus but later it was a train, and realize I am on the wrong one, and keep going up to the front to try to find out where it is headed, and keep thinking about getting off at wherever the next stop is going to be and then finding my way from there. One of the times going back to my seat, I see H in one of the little rooms, and I am so happy to have the company of someone I know on this ride. He doesn't want to get off at the next stop, he wants both of us to ride the train as far as it will go. I look out the window again and see there's beautiful scenery in the distance and I decide I want to try to see this 'getting on the wrong train' as an adventure and look for the good things, so we start talking again and it's like when we first met and got married and we're having fun and enjoying each other's company and I start seeing that whether I get off at the next stop alone, or stay on the train til the end of the route, either way I can't know the future/there are no guarantees, so I make the decision that I want to stay on the train/not be alone/figure out how to find happiness inside myself that is not dependent on the scenery outside the train. I snuggle next to h with my head on his shoulder and try to fall asleep, and that's when the alarm woke me up!