Difficult night again. Severe anxiety. I felt like I was dying for a good three hours no matter what coping skill I tried.

RS is worried. He doesn’t want me to go back IP. I’m not going back unless I’m committed again. Y’all gotta drag me in there, literally.

Little sleep. I didn’t get to sleep until around 11 I think and I’ve been up since 4.

Hopefully I will feel better soon. Everything cycles.