There’s no point to reach out to him.

It will make him feel full of himself. He’d be like see second time my wife goes nuts kicking me out but then she’s so miserable and can’t even manage her life and is trying to lure me back begging.

He might even tell his friends. Remember how she kicked me out? Look she can’t stay away because she can’t manage without me. She’s so unstable. She can’t keep a job. Guess I have to go on a rescue again.

Then it will be just a matter of time before things go nasty again. There is NO reason to reach out to a man whom you are divorcing. Plus you told him all these things how he needs to leave you alone. And now you want him back? Even if just for support. Those bridges are burned