Thanks LT. I appreciate that. I hadn't even thought about EAP my brain isn't working. I may call them after work today actually, I think you can just talk to somebody on the phone when you call in iirc. I might go ahead and email L too that's a good idea to put my own boundaries on what I want to discuss. We shall see.

I did take zoloft years ago I may ask my GP for that. i took trazodone too but i didn't care for the side effects (terrible nightmares) so i don't want to go back on that one!