Morning is the hardest time for me. This morning it's particularly bad. Not hearing from one of my sisters is devastating me. She's done this before, and it never got to me like this. I don't think we're ever going to make up, like we have in the past. I don't matter to her anymore.

I once saw a thing on facebook that someone posted. It was the following quote: "One of the bitterest pills I've had to swallow is to find I mean so little to those who mean so much to me."

It feels so awful.