I totally get it and have been in similar situations few times!

I think what confused me as the way you spoke about him all of a sudden in a loving manner about to fall back into his trap! I know you are fighting the battle. That’s why everyone on here trying to help you through that. Otherwise we’d not respond or would encourage you “yup he is supportive and your go-to person, so go back to him, he’ll help you out”..

This isn’t an easy battle!