My voices/alters? are physically hurting me again. Aspirin & tylenol (extra strength) are not helping. One of them keeps saying he doesn't care if I suffer. One of them claims he can feel the pain sometimes but can't do anything about it. The two main ones are sort of friends & take turns causing the muscle & nerve damage. Ironically, the younger of those two sometimes scolds the older one, but then joins in again. I hope someday I can find a doctor who knows how to block the pain from registering, like a drug that puts a blocker in the receptors? Hopefully a drug that blocks the voices entirely. I cry a lot, wishing & hoping for my freedom. I remember my freedom & all the things I loved, like reading wonderful books & plays, & enjoying movies, & birding, & having my thinking room up there in my mind private.