I get that it's all related, I get that it's all a part of the process, but I am really wary of this becoming more about the relationship than about processing and understanding the trauma itself. But I don't feel like I can connect with you enough to do that until I know that you are there in a gentle, reassuring, compassionate way. And I don't know that yet. Because every time I feel like I'm taking a step towards you, opening up to you and (not literally) asking that from you, like last week, you respond with challenges and science. There's a time and a place for that, absolutely, but it isn't always helpful. Maybe I do literally need to ask you for that, then? Problem is, I still don't know if it's ok to ask for those things from you. I still don't know what you meant when you said "maybe what you want, isn't what you need". We need to have that conversation next week, I think. And so we cycle back to it being about the relationship.