Thank you for the posts above. I got out today to my healthcare clinic to get a vaccine shot. Since coming home, I've not been doing well mentally.

Next, I'm going to clean up the kitchen. It's messy and discouraging to look at. It's hard to tear myself away from the TV and go do that. But I must. The news channels are depressing to look at.

I have to find a way to regain some normalcy in my state of mind. Later I'll post about any progress I make. This is getting fightening. The more I think about the rift with my sister, the less I see where this is going to be fixable. No one relationship should be that crucial.