I’m putting off and dreading calling my mother. She spewed venom at me yesterday, totally uncalled for. Dr. Ramani says just go no contact and you will be alright. I can’t fathom really doing that but it sure is tempting. I now look at all these interactions as feeling getting zapped by a bug zapper. I get zapped quite a lot. It is incredibly strange and disorienting to be reading a book about healing from trauma while I am still in it. The book literally says they hope you are not still with your abuser. Um…yes, I am…