I lost my pdoc of six years due to insurance issues about a month and a half ago. I’m extremely lucky I found another one quickly, we will see what insurance has to say about them soon I guess. Unfortunately, I have everyone that actually know me telling me I need to get into therapy asap as well. It’s kind of a sore spot because I don’t want to and I don’t know what to say to those people. I have a hard enough time posting here. Here’s what sucks. I’ve tried, I really have. I send an email, wait a few days then I call. Nothing. No email back, no call back, no answering their phone. This includes clinics so it’s not just independent therapists. I’ve done this now eight times over the past month. I’m not exaggerating, eight times. If I count the clinics I’ve called that do answer their phone to tell me they aren’t accepting new patients that number balloons to 12. How tf is this possible?

Part of me is like yay, I tried, it’s not my fault, I’m fine anyway. Then there’s the part that acknowledges that I am pretty f’d up and need professional help because meds alone don’t fix this. I feel a little lucky that I don’t live in the middle of nowhere anymore and there actually are 12 to call but this is getting absurd.