Keep in mind that she wanted to discard you and she chose to leave and ask for a divorce. Don’t feel bad that you had not realized her alcohol addiction. Alcoholics get very good at lying to protect their alcoholism. You don’t want her reaching out to you to use you again, that’s what alcoholics and narcs do when they get desperate for supply. It’s not out of love, it’s only to fill a need in THEM.

It’s amazing how people miss the red flags. I think now you are starting to see the truth.