Its my turn to take a shower. But I don't have the energy. I want to take a second nap instead. I managed the day with just 2 valium. Which is not like me. Basically I've just been so lethargic today I haven't felt much of anything else. My mom asked if I was ok earlier because my voice sounded weak. Idk. So far I just feel super tired and kind of nauseated.

I do have a bit of a bloody nose right now though. And some yellow gunk. Sorry for the tmi.

With all my other blood related issues the first thing I think of when I have a bloody nose is "Leukemia" then I think of the house just being dry. Then I remember my doctor saying yellow means you are normally sick, or about to get sick. So idk.

My mom and therapist need to shut it about food. Yeah I have an eating disorder. But why would I eat if I am legit not feeling good? Not everything is restriction.