I think I carry too much guilt and self blame. If only I had known sooner I could have prevented the losses.

There is a lot of statements that encourage self blame if you think about it.

Yes Liz I felt frustrated myself in that I had deep triggers that were “intrusive” that were caused by others who treated me badly or behaved badly to where I was traumatized. I can relate to the anger about the effort it took in cleaning up “self”.