@MuseumGhost - thank you. Getting my place tidied up would make me feel better. I haven't even taken the Christmas tree down. Looking at it now is not a source of joy. I know I have no deadline, but I'll feel better, when I put the Christmas stuff away. I have a tree, a Nativity set and a Victorian village that was my boyfriend's, plus garlands over windows and doors, plus lights outside around a window, plus wreaths on my doors. Seeing all that stuff now makes me sad.

I'm just not making myself do what needs to be done. I did pick up the kitchen yesterday. At least the dishes are done.

I have mail to go through. I'll be paying some bills late. That will bring late fees. I'm just making my life worse by neglecting things. I have to stop this.