Thank you for your words. I am being bombarded by emotions that i am not used to and really have no one to talk to. Summer wow got to teach summer school and other than that my house is a complete disaster. I would like to go somewhere with my 15 year old cause last summer we were very poor cause my x left and we had to keep all the bills, lawyers ect a float. Want this summer to be more healing and relaxing for us. I have been crying for hours sometimes i really don't know if i can do this but i keep going. Again thank you for your time it means a lot to me. Just to know that others experience the same things help.