<font color="purple">I have come to a realization about anixety, jobs and feeling a bit insecure about my relationship sometimes.

My psychiarist put it into words for me, even though I was thinking it. Since they both combine together.

The reason why I wasn't pushing myself to work was because they anxiety was too uncomfortable, we all know how that is. Also I felt that I didn't have a goal, a postive goal, if there isn't something I want then why go through that with working? Well I got some good answers that now make me want to work and to do it in a postive way despite anxiety. A future with my guy. I finally found out that we want the same things, future wise... to be together, to live together, go on vacations and so forth. That is my goal to work, for a future with my guy... one that I always wanted, it was like a new chapter of my life opened up. I don't feel stuck anymore....Does that makes sense? </font>