I’m not falling asleep on time. I finish my book reading, then lay there for hours not sleeping. I’m not ruminating. I’m doing the zen mind but not falling asleep until 4-5 am. I have to get up at 7 for swimming. So this morning of course I canceled swimming and went back to bed. Didn’t help that it was -7F feels like -21 either. Of course the more I sleep late the less likely it is that I will get to sleep on time.

Did have a disturbing dream, when I went back to bed. I was on the edge of a closed fairgrounds, in the dark. Chain link fence was everywhere and I was stranded without car or phone. There used to be a bus stop there but not any more. Walking though the dark I came across a doctors office that served the poor and homeless. I asked if they could call a taxi for me, nope they were having a party. Ran into a person I used to know, asked her for a ride no problem, but then she walked into the woods after three small dogs.