((((Hugs)))) Start by creating goals. You complained about not having your license, is there steps you can take to get your license? Take a driver's ed class, take the driver's test, etc? Can you join social groups of people with similar interests? Try meeting people people put yourself in places where you can make friends, date, etc. Join a club, a league something to get outside and active. bowling, tennis. softball, etc. There's lots you can do. Start going to church pray to God for guidance. He rather give you answer than see you commit suicide.