it would be nice if i could coax my dream-maker into a continuation of that dream - do i stay on the train or not - I guess that's asking for a future projection and I ain't no psychic. Meh.

I wonder what my life would look like right now if I had left h when I had the golden opportunity to do so back in 2019 shortly before the stupid pandemic appeared.....? Is there even any sense in wondering now, almost 4 years later?!