tired, down, fighting, overwhelmed, trying to keep it together, struggling, faking that old smile and pretentious good mood .... right now i just cant look after myself .... too many others hurting (IRL)...... sorry, had to vent ,,,,, off to bed, this is one night i will sleep ..... My friend is about to have a nervous breakdown. i talked to her 3 boys today, to help a little, show her she is loved and needed, i also asked her hubby if he could stay here next week instead of working away as she just can't cope with anything ....i hope i haven't interfered too much, but imo she comes first. Her boys (19 . 18 and 9)all took it well and i think they realised how down she is. I was very gentle with Louis the youngest and just asked him to help mum out a little, not bring his friends home for a few days and since he has been really good (he's a good kid anyway)and he cuddles her more than usual .... i just told him mum was sad becauseof grandma passing and he was so mature about it. Do you thnk i did the right thing? She really is worrying me right now, she even said she wanted to just go away and leave them all this morning ..... i know it's the grief and depression talking. We spent the whole afternoon baking today with Louis and laughed cos we forgot to put sugar in the cookies .... then her cake went flat so we made another half to put in the middle lol .... i know this is all trivial to you, i just need to talk .....i saw her mood drop this evening, just like that. Her hubby is home tomorrow, i am so glad, she needs him right now.

sad, Kerry xx

Jinny xx