Some 18 hours since last therapy session, and still feeling the after-effects. Hyper-alert, can't settle, constantly wired. Internal feeling of needing to do something, but not having the actual energy to do anything. Hardly any sleep. Weird, disturbed dreams. More questions than answers.
Do I find the courage to email you with my questions and brain-dump now, or wait until nearer next week's session? I am trying to hold off making contact for as long as possible, but next week seems an age away, and there is no guarantee you will reply anyway, unless I specifically ask for it (and I never have asked for a response in all the time we've been working together).

We have another 5 sessions left in this batch. Once again my mind is turning towards the question of whether or not I continue with you. I'm not even planning on contacting ex-ex-T at this moment in time. Right now I'm considering whether I just need a break from therapy. I know once I take that break though, that I will find it impossible to return to our work together and will either end up existing without therapy at all, or will just look for someone new, despite the downsides of beginning again.... and that is both putting me off searching for another T and from bringing things to a close with you.

Am thinking I need clarification from you on where you think we are on the therapy journey. Some weeks I feel as though you think we’ve got loads of work still to do, and other weeks it feels as though you think we’re nearly done. So I am somewhat confused as I can’t get a sense of where you think we’re at.