I'm going to make the bed, get dressed, set up my weekly pill-minder pack and go through mail, paying my bills.

Yesterday was so awful, it scared me. If I sit around frozen, like I did most of yesterday, things will just get more chaotic and I will wish I had never been born. The anxiety yesterday was torture.

It seems like there's a demon spirit telling me to just do nothing and give up. I'm so scared of that spirit, and it's good that I am. Today I will try to keep doing things. Otherwise, my problems could get a lot worse.

It's time now to see if there's a better way to spend the day, than sitting here, doing nothing, and getting more and more scared.