Therapy last night was really good. I don't know what made it so good exactly. We just talked about my being numb (I was numb last night. Today I am back to having emotional pain.) And how it is hard for me to cry and to feel my feelings and then to talk about them once they have lost their strength. We talked about hallucinations and self harm and missing my friend who is on vacation in Egypt. I'm feeling really crappy today and sent her a text and she responded with such a nice long message that made me feel really heard. It was the session I needed. I didn't want to stop talking to her when it was time. I did though.