I hate being mentally ill, relying on meds to keep me sane and thus relying on insurance to pay for those meds. I have to work because that's the insurance I have through the county. Working disabled.
I have limits with SSDI I try very hard to stay within. Not always successful honestly and I will suffer for it. The joy of my job is it can turn full time if they kick me off disability, and I'm not sure but I think cause of work I have a ticking clock with SSDI.
I hoard meds cause I fear running out. I will lose everything I've tried to build if I suffer another break. At least my apt is subsidized so worse case I lose my job my rent goes down but I have debt that's another reason I'm still working. plan to cut up credit cards eventually. Just keep it to two.
Also, I get so bored I need to work. idle minds.
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Son: 14, 12/15/2009 R.I.P.
Daughter: 20
Diagnosis: Bipolar with Psychosis. Latuda 100 mgs.
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