Thank you, my nice posting friends. I got a call from my clinic. My primary canceled our appointment for 2 weeks from now. Instead she can see me in April.

This really disappointed me. I feel so unsupported by my primary. They said I can come in 2 weeks from now, if I see a different primary. So I will go and see a different physician's assistant. I just saw this alternative provider on Mon. The pharmacy rejected her script for a higher dose of my antidepressant. Also, she had no interest in what I was telling her about me having some worsening depression.

After my boyfriend died, I was okay for 3 weeks. Then I wasn't. I called my clinic for help. They said I didn't need any help. My sister sent police to do a "wellness check." The officer found me unable to stop crying and brought me to a small hospital ER. They sent me to a small psych inpatient facility. I got the care I needed.

The clinic where I go is affiliated with a big university hospital that has a big psych facility. It's known for being a bad place. But I did used to get med management there. They eventually told me that my treatment goal was to stop coming to that place. So I got tossed out of there and started getting my psych medication through my primary.

I never ask for much attention. I guess they think I'm a fake. It shouldn't take 3 months to get a small increase in my antidepressant.

I can't let this get me down.