Dear T,
It occurs to me that what I *should* have said in that email was "I felt supported and cared for" not "You were supportive and caring." Ah well, I can just tell you that tomorrow.

I was also thinking how it felt like we were collaborating to figure out the goals stuff (and how I talk myself out of them). The times when you "push" that bother me, it feels like it's all you doing the pushing, that we aren't working together, that you aren't realizing that I'm not in a space to be pushed right then (or at least a space to be pushed on that particular topic or thing).

I imagine you wouldn't see yesterday as "pushing," but it also wasn't just you sitting there giving empathy and saying "I'm sorry you're struggling." We were still working on things and trying to find the cause of my despair and a way to feel better about myself and my life. I wonder if you'd be willing to do that more going forward? I'm not even sure how to describe "that", but maybe I can figure it out by tomorrow.

Love,
LT