I was talking to T about how I get along better with the guys at work than I do with the women and I go, "Sometimes women scare the hell out of me." And T said, "I don't blame you." We laughed together.

I think this is a combination of growing up with 3 sisters and being in the midst of intense competition rather than friendship--having an insensitive and distant, cold, dissociated mother, and and abusive grandmother. And I have been living for the past 26 years with H, and 3 sons. I live in a locker room......

But, the funny thing is, I love being feminine and dressing feminine and asking my H and sons how my new outfits look, etc.

I'm trying to sort out my feelings about this. Hmmm. I also liked HIllary.

Oh well.

Peaceout