Hi to anybody that might see this, i really appreciate you taking the time to read.

Over christmas i lost my little sister, her funeral was the 17th (my terminal fathers birthday)

we were like twins, have 4 older siblings a 10 year gap then me n my lil sis,

I personally think i did so good over the funeral, i kept clear, i helped mend fences and had my breakdown at home when nobody was looking. anyway because my lil sis and i are so linked, it seems i remind my family too much of her, i live rural so i'm very isolated and my family don't seem to want to speak to me,

I'm very very lost,