Thank you. I don't mean to sound self deprecating when I say those things, it's more about my mindset I guess. I'm comfortable working hard. Anything that has come up in our home or with a vehicle I just assumed it was up to me to figure out how to fix it.

My wife has gotten angry for how long it's taken me to fix something, gotten angry at me for time and money spent on my "hobbies" of fixing the house or cars, told me my only contributions to our home couldn't just be in the garage (though I was also the only income, and making all meals and doing laundry).

Anything that came up, I just assumed it was up to me to figure it out and stay afloat.

It's strange. If you grow up on a farm, in a home with sporadic binge drinking, you become used to being in over your head and just trying to keep things together.

I simultaneously have wanted to be rescued, wanted someone to take my responsibilities away from me, and also just assumed it was always up to me to solve whatever came up.

It's a strange combination. It's like you're doing all these different things and feeling totally overwhelmed and incompetent the whole time.

RDM