WELL,
I started having "spells" in June of 2003, in which i would kind of stare into space, fall asleep in the middle of them, while I was talking and wake up saying something totally different, think that nothing was happening and that i was fine, hide things and not remember where i put them, slow speech,sing,look like i am real mad,get red-faced,scratch my head a lot, clear my throat a lot, not remember things,etc.....i have been to numerous therapists, doctors, in the hospital, had many many tests, including eegs, ct's, brain scans, sleeping eeg's, MRI's,blood tests for chemical imbalances, tilt table test, gone to three psychiatrists, yet NO ANSWERS!.....A couple of the doctors have told me that they could possibly be "frontal lobe seizures" or even hormone imbalance, which i am now going to a good gynecologist....ANY suggestions would be greatly appreciated.....DESPERATE! Thanx
i am sitting here with tears in my eyes, because David, MY HUSBAND, and I had a horrible fight last night about my "spells".....For 20 MONTHS NOW! i have been having "spells", which the doctors cannot really seem to diagnose......he thinks i am not wanting to do anything about them and God knows, that is my MAJOR goal in life right now....i want them to STOP NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!......he says i do not tell the doctors about them, and i do....when i have them, he treats me very very bad,screaming at me and talking bad to the kids about me, which is wrong..they tell me, then he gets mad at them and says mean things ...which i would rather he hurt me, not them!!!!!!!!.....and i have no control over the spells....i get my doctor appointments so that he can go with me, but he doesn't....i am at wits end....i truly am....like jim said yesterday, i am ready to just give up!!!!!!!! i really am.....how can david feel that I DO NOT CARE????...the guilt that I feel is UNBEARABLE....i truly do not know how much more i can handle, along with the pain, inside and out....i also have 15 herniated discs in my spine...i am not contemplating anything stupid, but i am so
afraid of losing my family.......david is usually a very dear and kind and loving person, but he HAS to talk about this EVERY day, in front of the kids and when i ask him to please not do that, he accuses me of not caring about getting this cured.....it has been 20 MONTHS now, that i have had these, and i understand his despair, as i also have it VERY much.....i love him and the kids so VERY VERY VERY VERY much, and thank God for them all the time, but i am so unsure of what to do........i am so sorry that i have laid this out on you , but i am so sickened and scared right now, i do not know what to do............PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!!!!! SOON!!!..Thanx