Sounds like the reason your meds may not be working, is of several possible reasons, wrong ones for your disorder, possibly time to change pdocs, if the present isn't working with you on this, patience with mild side effects with certain meds, many take awhile (almost a month or 2 for some) for a person to feel the full positive effects., dosages may need increase or decrease, and last, some of us lack compliance with treatment, building a wall around ourselves, getting stuck in a nasty cycle.
I really feel you need to tell your pdoc (if you haven't already) what you mention here, he or she may need a nudge to help you or change to a new pdoc.
You do not have to suffer like this, there are good pdocs out there, effective medications, and treatment plans.
I had similar feelings you mentioned, and I continued following pdoc's advice and trying different meds and/or combinations, and finally with patience things finally fell into place. I understand how frustrating the "waiting" can be, but please do not give up, you can make it.
Please take care,

DE