((((((((lostandlonely))))))) I just wanted to say that I am sorry to hear that you are feeling so badly. Living with depression isn't an easy thing most of the time. The depression has a way of telling us lies and having us feel like everything and everyone is against us. When we give in to this type of thinking it is very hard to pull out from under it. We fall into this viscious cycle of self-pity and self-hatred. Then we come to where we can no longer stand living with ourselves. This is when we start to lash out others and blame our problems and let downs on them. And we do this because it is easier to put our problems on them than it is to face ourselves. The longer we continue to do this, the harder it becomes to accept that we are responsible for our lives and our situations. It is upto us to make the necessary changes. Upto us to take action and be responsible of where our lives are going.

Until we are able to do this for ourselves, we aren't able to properly hear what it is God is trying to tell us. If we are continually finding ourselves back at square one in any situation it is usually because we haven't learned the lessons needed or simply just aren't ready. We have to remember that we aren't helpless. Anything is possible with God. But we have to be willing to do some work ourselves as well.

I know we can't hear tone on the computer screen. So please don't take this offensively. I sincerely do not intend it to be taken that way. I am trying to lend a hand and offer some advice from my own personal experience. I wish you the best in all you do.

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