@East17 - Thank you. I am starting to wonder if I'll ever get out of this. It's been an awful long, dark tunnel. I don't see the light.

Your post feeds me a little hope.

If I can just get going in the morning and put away Christmas decorations and straighten up the living room. Seeing the house all disorganized makes me feel like I'm a mess too. When I manage to get some chore done, I improve a significant amount . . . at least for a little while. Though I do relapse quickly, until I can make myself do something else. At least I got clean today . . . and shampood my hair and styled it.

If worse comes to worse, I could hire a professional organizer that I've worked with in the past. It's $60/hr. But she does get things straightened out quickly. I really would rather conserve my money and put things away myself. I should be able to.

Mornings have been bad. It's so hard to get up. Tomorrow I have to get that tree out to the closet. I should just donate it. I only just bought it last year. Looks so pretty up. 700 branches. I'm glued to the bed the first half of the day. Or I get as far as the sofa and stay there for hours. I wake up dragging a ball and chain.