I feel... off. Restlessness and resignation in equal measure at unchanging routine and circumstances. An undercurrent of... I wouldn't say anger... but agitation at those circumstances.
I finally have an appointment in sight regarding the pinched nerve and synovial cyst. I meet with the neurosurgery department Thursday to have them test nerve conduction. Depending on the result, I'll either be referred to somebody to get the cyst out or farmed out to other docs to figure out what else is wrong with my body.
Speak of the devil, my head voice still hasn't returned. Any attempt to reach my higher vocal registers nets me pain, tightness and silence. My PCP is, I think, playing it a bit cautious at this point. He has me on another round of steroids which, granted, help the pain, but do nothing for my actual voice. I'll finish the steroid regimen, and barring any surprise healing of my vocal cords, advise him to refer me to an ENT doc.
Annoyances after annoyances!
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"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
-Litany Against Fear (Dune)
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