well I finally got my answer, appointment with pdoc tomorrow. MMy brain is just too fuking chaotic right now. I feell like I havae thhree songs just going back adn forth back and forth and my own thoughts and the voices/visuals. I did not sleep at all last night. I haven't eaten since 11:30p yesterday. And fking D called to tell me about my appt. D and I don't get along so I try to make the phoen clls short. She thinks everything that works for her works for everybody, but guess what it doesn't!!!! STARING AT A PICTURE DOESN'T MAKE ME LESS DELUSIONAL!!!! And 8 months for a med to work? Are you kidding me? Longest ****ing manic episode and she insists I give the med more time.
And it's face to face so I have to get ride because last time I drove on this little sleep I got into an accident and was carless for 4 months.