I am really thankful for the resources I found online.They have been very crucial in understanding the dysfunctional dynamics of my abusers.The process of healing for me has been really very slow and it's going two steps forward and then one step backwards. None the less it has been progressive. Some times just sharing a little snippet of my life triggers an episode of bawling, like just yesterday night.Cried the whole night into my pillow until 5 in the morning. That felt cathartic.