Hi everyone!

So, my last post was over two years ago, but I've been a member of PsychCentral for well over a decade. This used to be my home, my solace, and my place of peace for many years.

Till life happened. Finally, finally.

I had spent so many years on this forum, wishing, just wishing for something to change in my life and for something to happen to me for many years. I was stuck in this slump for all my years on this site.

Till I got married.

Then I got involved with drugs.

Then my mental health with drugs, alcohol, and pills sent my bipolar disorder into overdrive.

Then jail for 10 months - the worst experience of my life.

Now rehab - which isn't much better.

I am trapped, caught in a cycle of chaos that feels never-ending. My marriage is strong though. My husband and I have gone through Hell and back and we're finally making it through.

I just want the simplicity back I had, even though it was in a slump. Life is so complicated now, I don't know how I will survive. I am so far away from home now too.

All I am asking for is a little support, and maybe some hugs. Some of you old timers may remember me from back in the day - I am a huge sci-fi fan and we used to talk "Trek" all time.

I miss it here and I hope to reconnect with some old friends and perhaps make some new ones as I try and navigate this new set of circumstances I'm in.

Love yall!

Lady Shadow