Thanks, unaluna. I think it is the speculum that hurts so much. I've felt the swab before but that didn't hurt so much, although one time it did make me bleed. Not fun. I know it isn't supposed to last that long, so how can it be that much pain? I don't know. All I know is that people don't seem to believe me when I tell them that I am in pain. They tell me it might be uncomfortable, but not pain. I usually just grin and bear it but I couldn't this last time and told the NP that he needed to stop. I asked him if he could use a smaller speculum or something. I don't know what he did but then it didn't hurt so much and then it was done.

I have my GP appointment on Monday. I am not having as many panic attacks. I am still very anxious. I hope she doesn't tell me to go do a third pap smear. I will not be very happy.