I am at extreme high risk for diabetes. My mom, sisters, both grandmothers, several aunts and uncles are diabetic. While I was pregnant with my daughter, I developed gestational diabetes. I weight 200 lbs and it keeps going up no matter what I try.

I ride 16 miles on a bike twice a week and take walks with my neighbor daily. I am constantly chasing around a toddler and barley have a chance to sit and rest.

I have taken my docs advice and cut calories to the point that I am passing out because my blood sugar is dropping too low. They tell me in the ER that I need to eat more due to my hypoglycemeia.

I kept a food diary for months. I measure out my serving sizes to make sure I am not over eating. I am eating so little I am almost not eating at all. My doc today tells me I am cheating or I need to cut my calories more.

I don't know what to do. I lose five pounds then In a week or so I gain that back plus five more. This pattern over and over. Over time this has equalled a huge weigt gain. Two years ago I weighed 150 which is a healty weight for me.

Doc wants me to see a diaticin again. My insurance won't Pay because I am not diabetic yet. I have to wait until I become diabetic. This is stupid. (Medicare does not pay for prevention they told me) They payed for me before only while I had the gestational diabetes.

My self esteem keeps sinking lower and lower. I can't even stand to look at my self in the mirror. I look like a cow. I can't go grocery shopping or eat in public because I feel like people are watching me eat or looking in my cart thinking she needs to lay off the "twinkies and get off the couch" I refuse to grocery shop at all. I can't stand the looks I get. I did not do this to myself. My body is working against me and the dmb doc won't listen or believe me.

I have hypothyroid which according to the blood work is in control. So he won't go up on my synthroid. I also have asthma, bipolar, irritable bowel syndrome

Please, anyone have some helpful suggestions for weight loss.