I feel for you, I have the same problem and have been working on it for over a year.
I hope this helps...On Tuesday my T told me she thinks I have a hard time communicating because I'm too worried about what she thinks of me. She then asked "what's the worst that would happen if I thought you were stupid/disliked you? " and even though she assured me beforehand that she didn't feel that way I felt like my heart was being torn in two. She sees me at my most vulnerable and arguably at my worst. It was then I realized something. Okay, she may never like me, she may think I'm stupid and annoying but I know she treats me with respect and dignity--and that shows me that I am a worthwhile person that deserves to take up space. I'm hoping I can open up to her more now--crossing my fingers.
You can never do therapy wrong because you are who you are and that is definitely more than enough. I wish you the best !