Dear T,
So that was pretty intense today. I feel OK about it though? Like, I don't think I'd been emailing even if you hadn't said I'm emailing a lot today.

And I'm going to do my best not to send you anything for the next couple weeks. I do appreciate that you said if something major happened, of course emailing wouldn't be an issue. I still think a 2-sentence email shouldn't count the same as a 3-paragraph one, though. OK, maybe I am still upset about the email portion of the session, but that was in the beginning. You still never seemed to answer about what's an acceptable amount. It's so hard for me to know. Like are a few brief emails, maybe once a week, the same as a really long one in your mind? And, I mean, the one I sent last week was one sentence thanking you for being supportive that session, so I don't see why that's an issue either?

I think I feel better that I got my doubts about our relationship out there. That I wasn't just holding that all inside. It felt today like you value our relationship and want to keep working with me. I gave you multiple openings to say otherwise, like, "Maybe I need a different sort of therapist." And, I don't know, maybe it's more ethical if you were to encourage me to explore that rather than to say I'd likely bump up against some sort of boundary issues with whoever I saw, unless they had bad boundaries, which would lead to other problems.

But you seemed sort of emotional in talking today, like I saw you wipe away a tear a few times (or at least it looked like it) and your voice was cracking some. It feels like you do value the relationship and wouldn't want me to just go away, even if I can be annoying and trying at times. And also like you do understand and sympathize with some of my struggles regarding the relationship. I think maybe I needed to see and feel that from you?

Love,
LT