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Originally Posted by Tucson
Yesterday at work, for a short period of time, I felt completely at ease. No depression! Its like a big weight had been taken off my shoulders. It was a great feeling. Soon afterwards, the experience went away. Today, I would like to make some music on my synthesizers. I just cannot get going. Part of the reason is that I am afraid of failing.
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I'm glad you felt better. I just had a similar experience today. Like you, I'm back to baseline now but it was nice while it lasted.
As for your music, try to play the music just for yourself. Use headphones or ear buds. Nobody has to know about it. It'll help ease the pressure of failing because only you will hear it.
I had the same problem as you but with writing. I always thought my writing was bad. So I wrote in my journal every day for a year. I got into the habit of writing and I wrote only for myself. It helped me build my confidence in myself. It was a slow process and I still have self doubts but it's not as bad as before. I often reread the passages I wrote during that time and looking back, I was overly critical. I guess writing for myself helped create another perspective that seems to help.
It's worth a try to just play the music for yourself, you've got nothing to lose.