I haven't felt beautiful for ages especially after that thing that happened when I was 17. Also in some groups guys use my picture to make fun of me and say I look trans and have a masculine face. So I don't feel very attractive to men at all. I feel like there are just much better looking women and there's no chance a guy would like me let alone think I'm attractive. I just don't feel very positive in myself. So everything feels a bit distorted I wish I could see myself in a much more positive light but I hold onto so many mistakes and feelings, and it's just hard. Also the other day my auntie said something about me needing to lose weight that im attractive but id be more attractive or I'll just look like a divorced woman that's given up. So I am just finding it hard atm