"I have been on meds for depression but it doesn't take away the pain in my heart." - THE ONE LINE THAT I TOOK FROM YOUR LETTER AND THE ONE THING THAT REALLY CAUGHT ME I GUESS. One thing i am sure about. You really hadnt moved on...because if so, you will no longer feel pain in your heart. this is the reality of life. i mean admit it. we all experience having the fear of letting go and saying goodbye... it is within ourselves as to accept that challenge... as for you, i can say move on.. get a life... think on the brighter side. there are lot more positive and beautiful things awaits you...