yep... asked him for diet pills.... he laughed.....
see the problem is, i dont want to stop doing it... i just want to be skinnier.....
and if the dr gives me a damn diet pill the purging nonsense can stop.
and i do agree, that guys want a girl with a good personality, and they tell me all the time that im fun, im cool, im easy to talk to etc...
but then when i hate my body so badly, the relationship gets ruined cuz they think i look good and i think i look awful.

liposuction costs too much for me right now, or i would just do that.
remember too, im in cali... and its a beach lifestyle... i have so many flaws i cant even wear a bikini... well i can but oh my god how embarrassing!
stretchmarks (ive had since i was like 12), puff belly, yuk... what guy wants to see THAT???