So, I haven't been here for a long time. I had gotten married back in 2020, and I stopped going online and blogging, and all of that. I got myself in a lot of trouble in 2021 - my mental health was raging out of control and I was using a lot of substances and drinking.

I ended up in jail for 10 months - which rocked me to my core, both spiritually and mentally.

Since coming out of that, I have spent the past 11 months in rehab, trying to get my life back together. I am currently homeless. I lost everything. My husband was in jail for a year too and has been under the care of doctors at a psychiatric facility since last May.

We both had the same charges around the same people, but God saw it fit to release me from my charges upon completion of this rehab, but for my husband, apparently, the prosecutor wants to put him away in prison for a long time.

He doesn't know any of this and I heard his upbeat voice this morning and just cried on the phone. There is a good possibility that I won't get to see him for a very long time. My heart is so heavy, I have waited so long in my life for someone, and I feel so helpless.

I'm heartbroken on Valentine's Day.