Thanks everyone. I called the therapist that I found yesterday on Psychology Today. I had messaged her but didn't hear back. I got her voicemail so I left a message. I hope she gets back to me to at least let me know if she is accepting new patients. It looks like it from my insurance website but those are not always up to date. I am a little confused as to where exactly her office is because there's a few different addresses listed for her and the phone number on Psychology Today was different than the one on her website. I hate to leave my therapist but I'm not sure I am really getting better. So what am I doing if I am not really getting better. I feel out of my depth trying to educate my therapist. I can tell her about why I self harm but sometimes I don't even know. I need someone who knows this stuff to help me. Unfortunately there isn't a lot of therapists where I live and even less than take my insurance and I cannot afford $175 per session!