I hope you'll be able to structure this ending in a way that leaves you feeling like you're aware (and unashamed) of what you need, confident that it's time for a change (even if it's painful due to your attachment to him), and that you're taking control of your own mental health and advocating for yourself as you explore appropriate next steps to continue your therapy journey with someone new.

You can be both grateful for the role he's played in your life during this time and also committed to continuing your healing with a new therapist. It's ok to do both and it's natural to have feel mixed feelings about all of it. Change and growth are hard.