Dear T,
I don't want things to end this way. Even if they need to end, whether temporarily (a break) or permanently, I want us to be on better terms when that happens.

I'm so tempted to ask if you have anything available tomorrow, but after canceling today's session yesterday with 30 minutes to go in the cancellation window, I imagine you wouldn't be too enthusiastic about giving me a slot, even if you did have an opening. And if you said you didn't have one, I wouldn't know for sure if it was that you were truly booked or doing that out of irritation (as you said that time in the summer that you were tempted to do, but didn't).

And maybe an extra day apart will be a good thing. Also, I'm not allowing myself to email before Friday, no matter what. Well, OK, I guess if something really awful happened in my outside life, but I'm sure you'd be fine with my emailing in that case (as you'd said before).

Love,
LT